So I've been thinking a lot of what I want to do and what I have to do... and now. I know exactly what I have to do. I don't like it because I feel that it goes against who I am to the core but in order to maintain the balance of things... it must be done.
It's kind of like that saying in Spideman... With great power comes great responsibility. For me, great change comes with great pain. But maybe, this is part of what God wants to change of me.
I guess, what doesn't kill you makes me stronger... and I sure hope this isn't what kills me.